From a Mother of Four

That’s me. Four babies. One in heaven, one in my belly, and two playing at my feet. Four.

Since being pregnant (aka, recently), I immediately noticed that this pregnancy would be different from all the rest. With one and then two, people are ready to jump on the bandwagon of congratulations. They share excitement with you that makes you realize that this is great! This is exciting! But with this one, this baby who will be 17 months younger than Asa who is 9 months old, it’s more like, “You do know how this happens right?” “Don’t you two do anything else?” “Did you mean for this to happen?” “Are you done after this?” “Wow that’s a lot of kids!” And I do get it, because people almost always mean well. They don’t know what else to say, they want to make light of a situation, they think it’s funny. And I’m not offended, nor is it hurtful to me. It always comes from a loving place. So hear me when I say, I am not upset. I just want to point to Jesus. Not ruffle some feathers.Continue reading “From a Mother of Four”

Grace & Glory

The past two days, I have been sick with a cold. It’s my body’s “welcome to pregnancy!” party that has happened, so far, with every pregnancy I’ve had. Rather than spending my weekend engaging with my boys, I’ve spent it watching them from the couch or resting in bed.

There will be glory.

We have been on the journey of small business for almost two months now. Not everyday is a great one. More often than not, I find myself crying in my husband’s office because of all the worries of this path we have chosen. It is new, and it is not exactly paved.

There will be glory.Continue reading “Grace & Glory”

Plus One

I’ve been talking a lot about grace over the past few weeks because I’m longing to learn how to lean into it rather than away from it. I’m trying to learn how to give myself grace just as my creator has done for me. I don’t always give myself enough room to breathe, enough space to be imperfect because I am often striving for perfection. I am longing to rest in grace, for it envelopes me in a love that surpasses all understanding.Continue reading “Plus One”

Living in Grace: Joy

I can’t believe that it’s only Tuesday with the amount of unfortunate circumstances that have hit us in the face already this week. Being homeowners, parents, adults, and newly-named business owners all at once has been the biggest trial of our life thus far. We are trying to swim, but some days really do just feel like drowning. Some days are glorious and filled with the radiance of God’s promises. And some days, like today, make us feel like we’re praying on deaf ears, hoping for silly dreams, and wasting our time on faith that has not come through.Continue reading “Living in Grace: Joy”

Living in Grace: Silence

When I am frustrated, upset, worried, or scared, I have a tendency to be silent. My husband will pester me continuously until I talk, reminding me again and again that in the situations when I am keeping silent & holding in my troubles, I am doing no good, especially for myself.

The same, I think, is hard to say for situations when we cry out to God only to find silence in our ears. My husband lost his job almost two months ago, and I felt as though I spent a great deal of time crying to God for a reason. I yelled, grumbled, pleaded…when things are unfair, I am quick to voice my opinion.Continue reading “Living in Grace: Silence”

Dreaming & Living: New Beginnings

Every good, every joy, every peace comes from the Lord. And at every hardship, challenge, & doubtful moment, nothing separates us from Christ.

Here we are, friends. I’m stepping out today following this little weird dream I have that appears over & over in my soul. You may notice a few changes around here that I can so greatly accredit to my husband, who so wonderfully designed this logo for my crazy dream. I am way excited about this!Continue reading “Dreaming & Living: New Beginnings”